Wow. A whole stinking month since my last post and I have, sadly, not made as much progress in my life as I would like to say that I have. I know for an absolute, indisputable fact it is because I have not been doing my "face time" with God as I should be doing. I think this is the most important part of my walk right now and I have been, sadly, neglecting it. I have been praying in the form of journaling and I have been reading my Bible, but these do not, right now, challenge me the way "face time" does. I am also lacking, still, in that area of great challenge for so many people, discipline. My goal, though it is a soft one, is to start waking up at 5 in the morning in order for me to get in all of the necessary components of my quiet time. I managed to get up at six a couple of times and I plan to just keep working backwards every couple of weeks by ten minutes until a I can get up at 5.
The thing that makes it so hard for is that the more stressed I get, the more i just want to sleep. And I can't ever go to bed before 12 or so, it just doesn't work. So I end up just not getting up in the morning. I know the Lord will sustain me, it's just really hard convincing my body of that, lol. And the more tired I am, the harder it is for me to have the desire to do, well, anything really. God is bigger than my stress and my continued battle against complacency and I will serve Him and bring Him glory, no matter my situation. Praise Him that He can work through my short comings!!! With Christ in me, I can do this. I can find the balance I so desperately need in my life.
